Week 15

So when does it all sink in? As you can see from the weekly pictures I am not showing at all. So it makes it really hard for me to feel like its all real. I haven't felt the baby kick, so I don't have that to make it real. I have heard some women say they finally had it sink in when they first heard the heart beat. Others say that it was when they saw the baby on the sonogram. I have had both of those things but yet every day I feel like I could wake up from this and it never really happened.

When I first heard the heart beat it was the most amazing sound I ever heard. I really did think I could cry and I wanted to hear it forever. My mom got me the home Doppler thing so I can hear it whenever I want, and there are nights I fall asleep listening to the heartbeat. But after the heart beat is gone, its like it never happened. Like I woke up from that dream. 

I have seen two sonograms and both times I got to see my baby move around. It was pure joy. Especially when I can actually see what the baby looked like. I think that half hour in the sonogram room was the best half hour of my life so far. I keep looking at the print outs they gave me so I know it really happened, but again it still doesn't seem real to me.

When does it really sink in? When do I get to show? Maybe when I find out the gender  in a week from tomorrow it will sink in.