First Doctor's Appointment is Scheduled

I finally have insurance, so I am happy. As soon as I got my membership number I called the doctor's office to get the blood test to confirm what I already know so that I can get a referral to go to the OBGYN. Gotta love the HMOs.

Sept 2, 2008 I will confirm I am indeed pregnant, because the bigger and painful boobs, the nausea, the extreme tiredness, and the hormone induced mood swings aren't clue enough... Ok Ok yes this could also just be depression, but last I checked depression did not come with increased boob size or breast tenderness. So I am going to go with the instincts and still say I am pregnant.

Because I am proactive and realistic I also made the appointment for the OBGYN. I was feeling like a bad mother already and the baby isn't even a fetus yet. I was thinking I should have had the appointment already. Good think the nurse or whoever scheduled the appointment was very kind and full of information and let me know the first visit is always between 8 to 10 weeks. That was a huge sigh of relief for me since I am only in the 6th week. I am not a bad mom yet. I am sure I will have years and years to claim that title.

So the OBGYN visit is scheduled for Sept 12. I will be 9 weeks and 5 days at that point. I will get an ultrasound done in the office along with all the other basics of medical history and general questions and answers session. No I am totally excited about the ultrasound. I will get to hear the baby's heart beat for the first time, and I will be far enough along to where the baby looks somewhat like a baby.... ok well a lot more like a baby than it currently does. I think with my hormones as bad as they are right now if I saw a scan of my baby now I would burst into tears swearing my baby is deformed.

I am also terrified of this ultrasound. When I first found out I was pregnant I was looking forward to every ultrasound especially the first heartbeat one. Now I know you have all seen a movie where the girl is pregnant and its her first ultrasound and her tummy is flat and tight and they have the wand out with all the goo on her stomach. They show the correct picture on the monitor. Now this is very deceiving because apparently this is not how it is done at all. I mean I can understand why it's portrayed that way on the screen. The real way doesn't make good touching TV/Movie moments.

Now what is really going to happen is a vaginal ultrasound. Where as one bloggster I read called it, its basically a dildo with a camera. Now doesn't that sound fun. I am guessing this one doesn't vibrate. I guess I am just going to have to try to concentrate on what is happening on the monitor when I see my baby for the first time and forget where the camera is. But I will have a snappy come back if my kid ever tells me to stick it where the sun don't shine. I can tell him/her that I did, that was how I got my first picture of you and give them a loving kiss.