Ok, first let me just say if you are a first time expectant mother maybe you shouldn't be reading this. I have made that mistake and now am scared shitless about the whole process that awaits me. If you want effective birthcontrol read these and the many other blogs out there or weekly development sites. There is a lot of stuff you aren't told until its too late and you are already knocked up.
I wanted to keep a journal, most likely weekly during my pregnancy. Most of my family and friends live on the other side of the country from me and do not get the joy of hearing me bitch and complain about everything I am going through right now. So hopefully when I make this public they can read it and be thankful I was too tired or too moody to want to talk to anyone.
Every newly expectant mother, or girl who is hoping she got knocked up or is scared to death she did, wants to know how early can you feel symptoms, and what are they like. For me, I felt them 3 days after conception. I was tired all the time and just wanted to sleep. I didn't think anything of this because well frankly I am tired a lot of the time. But then my boobs started to hurt, not an all over heavy boob type to hurt, but like my husband waited until I fell deep alseep (another new thing I noticed) and repeatedly poked at my nipples really hard until he bruised them. When this started to happen I thought to myself, how odd, it's a little early for my PMS symptoms to start. The the final kicker was the waves of nausea. I knew that wasn't right. I did not plan to become pregnant, so I was trying to think of anything else this could be.
I was that girl on the blogs and message boards asking if it was possible to feel symptoms that early. I got a lot of no's its too early and even more take a test. Ok so being probably now a week after conception, I still had a week and a day until I was planning to start my next monthly cycle. Now as most of you should know that is way to early to get any kind of result fr0m a home pregnancy test. But yes I went out and bought one anyways, but I was smart, I knew it was too early so I bought a 2 pack. Took my test and nothing showed within the first minute after taking the test. (Yes I know you are supposed to wait 3 minutes, but as you will quickly learn I have no patience with waiting for something I want. I am all about instant gratification). I go back about 10 minutes later and pull the stick out of the trash just too see, and I see the very very very faintest line, but I think maybe that is just the line that is always there. I mean you have all seen the movies....the positive results are always big and bright and there is no mistaking them.
So again I am on the blogs and message boards, all the while telling myself that I am not indeed knocked up. I come across a message about a place to check out the accuracy of your home pregnancy tests (peeonastick.com) and what do I discover? That the brand I choose is probably the worst there is. There are actual pictures of positive results at about 15 days past ovulation (which is past missed period day) and the line was so faint you could barely tell....
So now its 5 days before I am expecting my cycle to start and I have to get up in the middle of the night to pee and knowing that the morning bathroom trip is the one to test I pee on my second stick at 4:00 am. Ok I am dead tired and don't really have to be up for another hour and a half, and as I already mentioned do not have the patience to wait the full three minutes, so I wait for a minute and through eyes that want nothing more than to go back to sleep I look to see if there is a line. There is, but it is super faint again, and I convience myself that it is my tired eyes playing tricks on me and I take it as a negative test result, even if my friend's don't think so.
So now it is the Saturday before I am expecting to have my week of misery, and I decide what the hell I will go and take one more test and put my mind at ease when I get the negative result. So I quickly consult with peeonastick.com to try to find the best test (turns out that is at the dollar store, which is not walking distance from me so I opted for CVS also a more accurate brand than a lot of those more expensive name brand ones). I pee on my third and final stick, and as the fluid absorbs up the stick the big blue cross sign starts to form....no three minutes needed. Just as big and bold and obvious as in all the movies and TV shows. I was indeed knocked up.
Now to tell the husband that we are expecting a new bundle of joy. It went better than I thought that night, but the next day there was a bit of a freak out over money, which I am told is their part of the pregnancy and all men go through it. Us women get to throw up and walk around like the undead, and they go through every dollar that should be coming in and in their mind watch the savings shrink. But they do get over it. It only took the husband oh say a few hours before he got used to the idea and realized that the baby can't use the credit card at least until age 6 or 7.
So week 4 isn't so bad. I was all excited. Looked up things I was going to need for the child, crib, bedding, playpen, what kind of diapers to use, and names. Its all so much fun to look through, and then toward the end of week 4 it starts to sink in. I AM KNOCKED UP. I am going to be someone's mommy. I am not very maternial, so I started to freak out, and as I read more and more about the weekly development that would be happening in my body, my mind did not go through the "oh how amazing, my body knows to do all that". No my mind went straight to the "It does what? Inside me? That doesn't seem right!" And then there is the names. But I will save that for a whole other blog.
I wanted to keep a journal, most likely weekly during my pregnancy. Most of my family and friends live on the other side of the country from me and do not get the joy of hearing me bitch and complain about everything I am going through right now. So hopefully when I make this public they can read it and be thankful I was too tired or too moody to want to talk to anyone.
Every newly expectant mother, or girl who is hoping she got knocked up or is scared to death she did, wants to know how early can you feel symptoms, and what are they like. For me, I felt them 3 days after conception. I was tired all the time and just wanted to sleep. I didn't think anything of this because well frankly I am tired a lot of the time. But then my boobs started to hurt, not an all over heavy boob type to hurt, but like my husband waited until I fell deep alseep (another new thing I noticed) and repeatedly poked at my nipples really hard until he bruised them. When this started to happen I thought to myself, how odd, it's a little early for my PMS symptoms to start. The the final kicker was the waves of nausea. I knew that wasn't right. I did not plan to become pregnant, so I was trying to think of anything else this could be.
I was that girl on the blogs and message boards asking if it was possible to feel symptoms that early. I got a lot of no's its too early and even more take a test. Ok so being probably now a week after conception, I still had a week and a day until I was planning to start my next monthly cycle. Now as most of you should know that is way to early to get any kind of result fr0m a home pregnancy test. But yes I went out and bought one anyways, but I was smart, I knew it was too early so I bought a 2 pack. Took my test and nothing showed within the first minute after taking the test. (Yes I know you are supposed to wait 3 minutes, but as you will quickly learn I have no patience with waiting for something I want. I am all about instant gratification). I go back about 10 minutes later and pull the stick out of the trash just too see, and I see the very very very faintest line, but I think maybe that is just the line that is always there. I mean you have all seen the movies....the positive results are always big and bright and there is no mistaking them.
So again I am on the blogs and message boards, all the while telling myself that I am not indeed knocked up. I come across a message about a place to check out the accuracy of your home pregnancy tests (peeonastick.com) and what do I discover? That the brand I choose is probably the worst there is. There are actual pictures of positive results at about 15 days past ovulation (which is past missed period day) and the line was so faint you could barely tell....
So now its 5 days before I am expecting my cycle to start and I have to get up in the middle of the night to pee and knowing that the morning bathroom trip is the one to test I pee on my second stick at 4:00 am. Ok I am dead tired and don't really have to be up for another hour and a half, and as I already mentioned do not have the patience to wait the full three minutes, so I wait for a minute and through eyes that want nothing more than to go back to sleep I look to see if there is a line. There is, but it is super faint again, and I convience myself that it is my tired eyes playing tricks on me and I take it as a negative test result, even if my friend's don't think so.
So now it is the Saturday before I am expecting to have my week of misery, and I decide what the hell I will go and take one more test and put my mind at ease when I get the negative result. So I quickly consult with peeonastick.com to try to find the best test (turns out that is at the dollar store, which is not walking distance from me so I opted for CVS also a more accurate brand than a lot of those more expensive name brand ones). I pee on my third and final stick, and as the fluid absorbs up the stick the big blue cross sign starts to form....no three minutes needed. Just as big and bold and obvious as in all the movies and TV shows. I was indeed knocked up.
Now to tell the husband that we are expecting a new bundle of joy. It went better than I thought that night, but the next day there was a bit of a freak out over money, which I am told is their part of the pregnancy and all men go through it. Us women get to throw up and walk around like the undead, and they go through every dollar that should be coming in and in their mind watch the savings shrink. But they do get over it. It only took the husband oh say a few hours before he got used to the idea and realized that the baby can't use the credit card at least until age 6 or 7.
So week 4 isn't so bad. I was all excited. Looked up things I was going to need for the child, crib, bedding, playpen, what kind of diapers to use, and names. Its all so much fun to look through, and then toward the end of week 4 it starts to sink in. I AM KNOCKED UP. I am going to be someone's mommy. I am not very maternial, so I started to freak out, and as I read more and more about the weekly development that would be happening in my body, my mind did not go through the "oh how amazing, my body knows to do all that". No my mind went straight to the "It does what? Inside me? That doesn't seem right!" And then there is the names. But I will save that for a whole other blog.
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